Caught Between a Rock and a Hard Place

Last night my parents proposed one of two outcomes that will affect my life entirely either way.

The decisions were:

A) Get my tattoo which I've put a $50 deposit on.

B) Be flown to Melbourne to go to Peter Brocks State Funeral and the spreading of the ashes at Sandown, providing I dont get my tattoo for 5 years.

I could go on for hours on how I reacted, how I didn't sleep and how my decision changes every 5 minutes and how TORN between the two I feel, but I wont.

Lets just say I'm happy that my parents understand how much Peter Brock means to me, but I'm pissed because of the blackmail that goes with it.

♥ heartbroken me xxx